Omi eyed Robin from the bed, no more inclined to converse from a statement of the obvious. Of course he owned that decision. What did blame have to do with it? Blame belonged to actions that were unjustified. To things that shouldn't have happened.
Then came the last bit that shifted Omi's features from apathy to confusion, discomfort, and shock. There were three striking elements to what Robin said. The first was the suggestion that he knew things others 'did' to him-- brainwashing no less. This confused Omi, because the fact was those people did have to die.
The second element was how uncomfortably close to the mark Robin hit on his assessment of Omi's self-worth. It was true, he didn't think his life had any real value. For all intents and purposes, it was already over. That was what being Weiss meant. It was for people who had nothing left to lose. It was a way to take personal tragedy and turn it constructive, by fighting to keep others from experiencing that same magnitude of loss.
The third element was the simple way that line about self-worth was phrased: as though it weren't true.
After a few seconds of staring stunned, Omi tested words, still without notice that conversation was much more fluid than last time. It hurt to talk, but physical pain he could handle.
"What do you mean...? What have people done to me that..." How did he even finish that question. He tried again.
no subject
Then, as Robin continued and pulled a chair over, Omi started to understand what he was really saying. Robin hadn't come in to lecture him. He had come in to admit to some mixed feelings, and that he was bothered. Listening to him, Omi couldn't help thinking of Youji. Someone not really comfortable admitting to things like being worried about others, so the sentiment hid under a layer of blasé sarcasm. Omi was wary, but he started paying more attention.
Then came the last bit that shifted Omi's features from apathy to confusion, discomfort, and shock. There were three striking elements to what Robin said. The first was the suggestion that he knew things others 'did' to him-- brainwashing no less. This confused Omi, because the fact was those people did have to die.
The second element was how uncomfortably close to the mark Robin hit on his assessment of Omi's self-worth. It was true, he didn't think his life had any real value. For all intents and purposes, it was already over. That was what being Weiss meant. It was for people who had nothing left to lose. It was a way to take personal tragedy and turn it constructive, by fighting to keep others from experiencing that same magnitude of loss.
The third element was the simple way that line about self-worth was phrased: as though it weren't true.
After a few seconds of staring stunned, Omi tested words, still without notice that conversation was much more fluid than last time. It hurt to talk, but physical pain he could handle.
"What do you mean...? What have people done to me that..." How did he even finish that question. He tried again.
"How do you know, anything that--"
And then, his face went white, and he understood.
"Schuldig. That... Don't tell me... You saw--"
What had that bastard shared with Robin?!